Tuesday, September 3, 2013

A Wintery Heirloom Update and my life

I have picked up my A Wintery Heirloom off and on this summer.  Here is all my major progress.  I actually had to email HAED because Gibbs ate this page and I couldn't find my hard copy.  They were nice enough to send me a new copy of the chart.  Those of you who read this know that Gibbs likes to eat things.

This is what it looked like before I started working on it again.  

Around 4:00 am Sunday morning the dogs were sniffing around on the porch and looking under my comforter I forgot to bring in after washing it and hanging it out in the sun.  Under the comforter was a mid size Opossum (not this one...I borrowed this image from Google). If you are wondering what in the world I was doing up at 4:00 am. I was stitching and watching Lockup on MSNBC. It is my guilty shows I watch.  I am completely fascinated about peoples behaviors and why they do the things they do.  So I watch shows about people being locked up in prison. It is very interesting, scary and sad at the same time. My stitching piece that I was working on my Round Robin piece because I was behind and just felt like stitching.

So after dragging the dogs back inside, making sure Bert was in the house, I locked up the doggie door because I just knew that Bert would try and bring it in the house.  Wasn't sure what to do because the dogs were wanting outside and after carrying on a conversation with myself outloud in the kitchen, it woke Mark up.  I have such an awesome husband who got up, chased off the opossum, walked the boys outside to go potty and then he went back to bed.  The doggie door had to stay closed because the Opossum got in the yard somehow so Mark had to walk the fence line, find the hole, and then fix it.  All is well now.

About me:
I really have been in hiding the past month or so.  I am not sure if I have shared this with you but I do suffer from depression.  I have been battling this for the past 4 or 5 years now.  I do not take medication for it because the medicine makes me foggy.  I hate that feeling.   When I start getting overwhelmed, really stressed or anxious, I feel my depression creeping back.  This is what has been happening because of the start of school this year.  It really has me down.  I don't feel like I am doing a good job at work, and I am gaining weight because of the stress eating.  I have avoided my groups, posting on my blog.   I am really good at keeping up a great front at work or with my friends.

I do know that I am doing these things but it hard to get back in the swing of things.  That is what I am doing now.  I am trying to get back to my stitching. I am figuring out what I need to do to make school not so stressful and to leave work at work!    I am going to back to counting my calories and drinking my daily 8 glasses of water, and trying to hit my protein number of 88 grams.  I do work out 4 times a week still....that is one of the reason I haven't gained 10 lbs instead of the 3 lbs.    So hopefully you will see more posts from me instead of the one a month that has been happening!


stitcheranon said...

Ah bless you: please don't worry about the depression: I bet you will get loads of replies from people saying they to ohave suffered from it. Post cancer I got it bad, it was my mind reacting to the drama of the cancer and was worse than the cancer or the treatments. There are new meds now which don't leave you fussy minded. I am a total control freak and hate that feeling...I am on amyltriptine which is very mild: no side effects at all and it just helps me take the edge off. When I saw you were up at 4 am, I think I could have guessed....bless those hours 2-4 am...I think we are all up then, those of us in this special club! BTW I am a teacher too (or was pre the big C).

I love the stitching, you have done loads! Well done.

Shari said...

your pets crack me up Vickie! Never a dull moment at your house!
Your HAED looks great!!!! You amaze me with your stitching!
I think more people suffer from depression than are willing to admit it & sometimes it seems to take just admitting it to others for things to turn around.
Hang in there.....hopefully the school year will get a little easier as it goes on!

Berly said...

A Wintry Heirloom looks wonderful! You've made quite a bit of progress on it.

You're doing a great job at school. Give yourself a break. Take some time to breath & relax with Mark. Blow some bubbles, it really helps!! Call or Skype me if you want to talk. {{{Hugs}}}

Mrs. GraceWorks said...

Wonderful stitching, Vickie. You are right. It does help to soothe your mind. I'm so proud of you for keeping up with the exercising. That's a hard one for me! Keep pressing on!!! {{Hugs}}

Marexstitch said...

Love your new stitching piece. I wish you well and hope you get through this rough spot soon. It happens to me also.

cucki said...

Beautiful new stitching piece...
Sending you hugs x

Linda said...

Great progress Vickie. We are all here to support you. If you feel down, let us help.


Deb said...

Love your HAED! Absolutely beautiful.
Awefull possums. Years ago we had two get into the house and make a huge mess.
Take your depression one day at a time and keep working on getting back into your old, comfortable routine. Less chaos makes for less depression. Cheering you on!

Silverlotus said...

Take care of yourself, Vicki. And don't be too hard on yourself. Many of us have or continue to suffer from depression.

And how crazy is your opossum story! I had a close encounter with a grasshopper today, and that is exciting enough for me. lol!

Anonymous said...

Sometimes life just hits us between the eyes & we end being overwhelmed. We all need to take a break from things & try to get back into some kind of rhythm again. Just know that we are here for you when you need us & we are here for you when you don't.
A Wintery Heirloom is looking great.
Betty in AZ (ILCS)

Anonymous said...

New follower here. I think cross-stitching has helped me immensely get through my depressions. It is a great time sucker :) I hope this passes for you soon. Meds are such a gamble.