My meltdown...we had some pretty weather last week while I was on Sping break. I decided to pull out my favorite capris and tee shirt to wear. I knew I had gained some weight so I thought they might be a little tight...UM.. I couldn't pull them up past my thighs. OMG!!! So I pulled out my fat capris...these are the ones that were always too big when I was at my heaviest weight...they didn't fit!!!! I sat down and cried. It just hit me how much my illness this year, new medicines, not working out, stress from work and snacking has affected me. I can't fit in my fat pants!!!!!
I made decision that I needed to work on ME! I really don't feel like buying new clothes so I decided to join Weight Watchers online. Where I live, they only have meetings during the day while I am at work. I could drive 35 minutes to go to a meeting but it would really take an hour to make it during rush hour traffic. So the online community is the way to go. I have started going back to the gym, cut out sodas and sweet tea. I have found a new drink!! I go to Sonic in the morning, purchase Route 44 water with fresh pineapple = $0.88 , I get a sonic cup, crushed pineapple at the bottom, topped with Sonic ice and water. Lasts most of the day!!!!
I have also bought some self-help books to read. I pulled out an unused notebook for daily journaling on my thoughts and feelings.
One of the books I bought was:
I am loving this book. I am reading the chapters and doing the worksheets/journal ideas. I didn't realize how many areas of my life I was being pulled. It has taught me to start putting myself first and it is ok to say NO! I have a hard time doing this!
I bought two more books but I haven't started them yet. I will let you know my opinion later on.... My shopping has gotten a little out of control. I do this when I feel bad about something or just need a pick me up! Which this past year, has been all the time. I seem to always say "me please" to a cross stitch chart or magazine. My husband showed me exactly how much I spent last month alone..I was shocked!!! I didn't realize!!! So ....Here are the books I bought (yes, I see the irony)