Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Some Changes

It has been a while.  I know!!!  I had an emotional meltdown last week and still feeling the effects of it.  My stitchy bug has disappeared and that is bad news for my year of starts. Which are changing but that is in another post.   It has been a year and I have not taken care of myself like I should have.  Does your head ever race and it never stops???  Mine has been doing this for a while.  I was calming it by stitching but here lately that isn't helping either.

 My meltdown...we had some pretty weather last week while I was on Sping break.  I decided to pull out my favorite capris and tee shirt to wear.  I knew I had gained some weight so I thought they might be a little tight...UM.. I couldn't pull them up past my thighs.  OMG!!!  So I pulled out my fat capris...these are the ones that were always too big when I was at my heaviest weight...they didn't fit!!!!  I sat down and cried. It just hit me how much my illness this year, new medicines, not working out, stress from work and snacking has affected me.  I can't fit in my fat pants!!!!!  

I made  decision that I needed to work on ME!  I really don't feel like buying new clothes so I decided to join Weight Watchers online.  Where I live, they only have meetings during the day while I am at work.  I could drive 35 minutes to go to a meeting but it would really take an hour to make it during rush hour traffic.  So the online community is the way to go.  I have started going back to the gym, cut out sodas and sweet tea.  I have found a new drink!!  I go to Sonic in the morning, purchase  Route 44 water with fresh pineapple =  $0.88 , I get a sonic cup, crushed pineapple at the bottom, topped with Sonic ice and water.  Lasts most of the day!!!!

I have also bought some self-help books to read. I pulled out an unused notebook for daily journaling on my thoughts and feelings.

One of the books I bought was:

I am loving this book.  I am reading the chapters and doing the worksheets/journal ideas.  I didn't realize how many areas of my life I was being pulled. It has taught me to start putting myself first and it is ok to say NO!  I have a hard time doing this!

I bought two more books but I haven't started them yet.  I will let you know my opinion later on.... My shopping has gotten a little out of control.  I do this when I feel bad about something or just need a pick me up!  Which this past year, has been all the time.  I seem to always say "me please" to a cross stitch chart or magazine.  My husband showed me exactly how much I spent last month alone..I was shocked!!!  I didn't realize!!! So ....Here are the books I bought (yes, I see the irony)

I will keep you updated on my readings and life changes.


OhSewCrafty said...

Vickie, it sounds like you are well on your way, making positive changes. Please do take the time to concentrate on your health and well being. As for cutting beck in stitchy expenses, do you want to join Stitch from Stash?

Keebles said...

I completely understand where you are coming from! Once I got started back on the meds, then the weight came piling back on. Unfortunately, the meds keep me from caring about the weight that much. It is so great that you are working on you and whatever it takes to get things done, that is what you must do and we'll always be here to support you!

Anonymous said...

Although I gained "only" 6lbs over the past year, I can certainly relate to your distress. I've been going to the gym sporadically since Christmas and really need to get on track again. Like you, I don't like buying new clothes when I can't fit into the old ones. :(

As for "doing more with less"... that's certainly what I've been feeling lately. I've been wanting to do some journaling. Something more than just how my day went. I've been looking for books on journaling ideas and decluttering my life. That first one you mentioned sounds like a good one. Keep me posted on how you like it as you read it. Good luck, my friend!

Meari said...

Whoops.. I don't know why I clicked Anonymous when choosing an identity! The last post was from Moi!

Linda said...

Oh I do hope things settle down for you Vickie. I have been heavy all my life and am trying to lose weight. I was so proud of myself. I lost 9 lbs in a week and got on the scales this morning and gained two and half back. Makes me want to give up. Hang in there we can do it together. Please don't give up on your stitching I so enjoy seeing your updates.


Jo who can't think of a clever nickname said...

Well done on recognising the issues and for talking about it too!
This is such a big thing in the stitching world right now and it's good to hear that people are realising that trying to do everything is not always possible.
I am sure once you start to regain control over one area of your life, you will be able to take back the rest of it too.
Hope the books help you too. Just don't buy anymore, that's what the Library is for LOL

Faith... said...

Sorry you are having a hard time Vickie. Being sick certainly takes a bigger toll on us than we realize at the time. It affects much more than we realize and when we take notice we become overwhelmed. I am also doing my own version of WW (I am a former member) because at the moment I don't want to spend the money. I just started last week so I hope it works, if not I will break open the piggy back!

I wish you much luck with your journey, keep us posted here so we can continue to be motivated by you!

Katie said...

So sorry you are having a hard time. I hope you can find peace quickly. I think sometimes everything piles up like a snowball rolling down a hill. Just take it easy and find yourself happiness. You deserve it.